For a bit in the past it has been hard for me to sleep. My observation of where I am in contrast to where I want to be is becoming stark and agitating being that I have always been an over achiever. I recently was able to determine why: I simply am not trying my hardest. I am not giving it my best. I always take and assume personal responsibility for me, my actions and aftermath thereof, but this one I must note.
(Side bar, I never did understand why people always blame others. Hell, I think its easier to take personal responsibility than it is to push it off. no I can pinpoint the issue and address it accordingly. I find it nagging when people start of their issues, concerns and problems with "you" instead of "I". It always sarts within... Anyway...)
I ask myself, how can I lay comfortable in my bed knowing that "I" did not give it my best today? Am I becoming complacent? I know I work hard, but am I trying hard? No I am not. I am defying the conscious that I have subscribed to that will enable me vertical growth and a broad view of life.
"You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. You are the guy who'll decide where to go. "
~ Dr. Seuss
Simply put, I, Dimitri Alvaro Seneca Blackcloud Snowden, MUST try harder. Thanx Dr. Suess, my first grade confidant.
Love this quote from the last "Grey's Anatomy":
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Keep pushing! But you are doing your thing; very inspiring to all the aspiring business owners/self-employed out here ;-)
@ Christen, well thank you! I will add, that not only is it "painful" and very difficult, but its lonely. The higher I go, the tougher my climb is, the less of those around mi...
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